Mikey was into drugs at age 13 and heavy drugs by 17. He flunked school and never held down a job for more than a few weeks. He took down his loved ones for the next hit, stole the family’s cash, and sold off anything not nailed to the floor. To feed his habit he became a drug dealer and he traded his closest friends for colluding smack buddies.
Mikey spent eight years on the streets in and out of hospitals and treatment centres. Then without warning a desire for change grabbed him from inside. Recovery came, health came, but slowly. It was then that Mikey began to realise the immensity of the hurt he had caused.
One day, while visiting his parents at their home, he made an effort to put things straight. He acknowledged his shocking insensitivity and owned up to the frightful ways by which he had hurt them all. The accepting embrace of his parents and their beyond-words forgiveness were like warm oil flowing over Mikey’s life and he began to feel again his own capacity to love. Later, when the rest of the family and their friends questioned this, Mikey’s Dad said, “To one who is part of you, which is easier to say, I forgive you or I don’t?”
They lowered the man and his stretcher down through the tiles into the middle of the gathering, in front of Jesus. Seeing their faith he said, ‘My friend, your sins are forgiven you’. The scribes and the Pharisees began to think this over. ‘Who is this man talking blasphemy? Who can forgive sins but God alone?’ But Jesus, aware of their thoughts, made this reply, ‘What are these thoughts you have in your hearts? Which of these is easier: to say, “Your sins are forgiven you” or to say, “Get up and walk?-Luke 5:19b-23
Lord, free us from our sins and make us whole. Hear our prayer, and prepare us to celebrate your Son born into our humanity. He lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God forever and ever. Amen.
I did not call it forth, it came, nor will I ever-From ‘A Fleeting Vision’ by James Kavanaugh
Be the same even if the vision never comes again.
I did not love at all, but rather I was by love itself